Never Have Lyrics Ever Been So Accurate In Regards To My Life

When we first met the well was dry

A long dark winter passed us by

With shooting stars and hopeful hearts our worlds collide

And so we rushed to fill each other in

Quick to feed our hungry hopes

A feast of our affections we were born anew

With open eyes we tried to make it work

And for a while the magic took

But cracks began to show as soon as things got hard

Like paper walls our feelings tore

We threw our backs against the door

Unwilling to bear witness to the other side

Oh, the games we play to hide the tangled dread inside

The fear that we are going nowhere fast

So we point the finger out, the anger gets so loud

It drowns out all the sorrow, at least until tomorrow... what then?

I took a good hard look at how I loved

Years I squandered falling fast

For any boy who'd have me was so insecure

I'd lie awake alone at night

Full of loathing, compromised

And wondering how the hell did I end up like this

Oh, the tears of rage I cried, when nowhere could I find

An answer that made any kind of sense to me

I point the finger out, the anger gets so loud

It drowns out all the sorrow, at least until tomorrow... what then?

Oh I wanna learn, I wanna know

Will our history crush us or can we let it go?

I'm not the girl I was but what have I become?

I'm not so willing anymore to bend

Still pleasing and conceding

But I'm not gonna lose myself again

Here I go again...back into your arms

What ever happened to resolve?

For though I thought that I was strong, that I could carry on

Awash in the illusion of this bliss

Here I go again...back into the flame

Like a moth so willing to be burned

A little touch a little taste the pheromones embrace

And I get weak with every breathe I take

'Cause it's you who released me

It's you who gave me fire

Oh and now it’s impossible to grow

Without breaking stride...I get so high

Take me out beyond the incline

Make it past the former fault line

For today I let the moment win

Here I go again...saying things I shouldn't say

Just so I can hear them back from you

Oh I know I shouldn't stay

I should be on my way

Back to a place I know is real

But the lines are getting blurred

My conscience wont be heard

Awash in the illusion of this bliss

And it's you who released me

It's you who gave me fire

Oh and now it’s impossible to grow

Without breaking stride...I get so high

Take me out beyond the incline

Make it past the former fault line

For today I let the moment win

--Sarah McLachlan